& the skin I find under my finger nails is still from your back. Thinking back to the times you had me on my back, eyes rolled back, with my back arched so high I swore it would crack.
Back then when your touch would send chills and if the windows weren’t closed the whole neighborhood would hear my squeals, moans. Tones on a soprano type scale, I was so focused on the feeling I would forget to inhale. The sensation brought tears that rolled down my cheeks, and we eventually moved to the floor because you were tired of changing the sheets. Please couldn’t even get you to stop, especially when you knew you had found my favorite spot. Legs shaking, both hands gripping your hair, you increased your speed when you knew I was almost there. Alas you realized I couldn’t take any more, and I laid there spent on your bedroom floor. Rest left just as fast as I came, round four, you were done playing games. Whispering your name just egged you on, the ball was in your court, I was just a pawn. Make your move, make me move, tell me where you want me. Up high, down low, fast slow, stop go. Whoa. Time was never on our side, and in a blink of an eye 3 hours had gone by. Oops, but that’s not really what I meant. Because the next day, we’d oops again.
Breaking Dawn by Stephenie Meyer
Ellen Page Appreciation Post
Ellen Page is an American actress who is well known for her lead roles in Juno and Whip It, although her IMDB page boasts more than 30 film and TV credits. The now 27 year old shocked many on Valentines Day when she publicly came out at a Human Rights Campaign conference for educators and counselors who work with LGBTQ youth. Many were not at all surprised to hear of her sexuality as many have had her on their gaydar for a long time. Even though, Ellen Page’s coming out speech was an incredibly well worded, well thought out, emotional, inspirational one.
In her speech she spoke of the difficulties and suffering that comes from being in the closet. She spoke about how hiding who you truly are can affect your relationships, your spirit, your mental health and your happiness. It was obvious during her speech that she was nervous and unsure. She had a clenched jaw and fist, she bounced and rocked. All leading up to the sentence that undoubtedly was a life changer for her to say “…and I am here today because I am gay”. The crowd cheered and applauded as Page took some deep breaths to recover from what I imagine was something she had stressed over for years.
It was obvious that this was not an easy speech for her to give. It was almost comforting to see someone so famous, so well off, so successful have the same struggles that so many LGBT youth do.
Ellen Page coming out may not have been big for some, I mean, didn’t we all kind of suspect it anyway? But for others, it was incredibly important. To be young and watch as someone you admire opens up to the world about who they are can be incredibly inspiring.
I loved her speech because you could see and feel her pain and her nerves. You knew that this was something she has honestly struggled with. She knew she was risking her career but chose to come out anyway. I admire her strength and I am inspired by her pride.
If you haven’t yet watched her speech, you can do so here. It takes about 9 minutes but it is such a phenomenal speech, it had me in tears and made me feel so, so very proud of who I am.
Why is her coming out so important? The same reason any celebrity coming out publicly is important. As we move forward as a world we are beginning to see LGBT people represented on television. Which is fantastic, but, the actors are usually straight and are portraying a struggle they’ve never really had and while I love seeing the world open up and allowing lesbians and such on television, you know that it’s not real. It’s not someones true struggle or emotion, it’s all been written by someone and acted by someone who is getting paid to be gay. When someone like Ellen Page comes out, there are young girls in the middle of republican city with homophobic families and fear in their hearts who see that being gay really is okay. They are able to identify with a real person, who is openly sharing their struggles. It is so very important to be able to make a connection like that when discovering who you are or coming out. They’re able to see it and think “If Ellen Page can be successful, loved and gay, why can’t I?”.
Thank you to Ellen Page for coming out and being proud and inspiring young girls across the world! We are so very honored and proud to have you in our community.
1. On giving excuses.
Don’t ruin a good apology with an excuse
2. On comparing.
If you keep comparing your life to someone else’s you will never be happy.
3. On “hoping.”
“Hope is not a strategy.”
My dad says this whenever someone says “I hope this works out” or something.
Pretty much it means you can’t rely on something working out, if you want it to work do something to make it happen!
4. On saving.
Always save 10% of what you earn.
5. On toilets.
Buy a plunger before you need a plunger.
6. On manners.
Make eye contact when shaking hands.
7. On college.
My dad gave me this piece of advice before I left for college: “Treat it like a job. Work 9 to 5, going to classes, then studying in a quiet spot in the library. Nothing to do? Work ahead on papers and assignments.” I did as he directed from the first day after orientation. I never pulled an all-nighter writing a paper or studying for exams. I never missed a class. College wasn’t a stressful experience for me, despite being in a competitive major. I graduated with a 3.83.
8. On priorities.
Don’t give up what you want most for what you want now.
9. On taking photos.
When you’re on vacation, take pictures of all the amazing places you see, sure, but make sure you or your friends are in the photos too. In 20 years when you look back at them, you’re not going to care about the Eiffel Tower, you’re going to care about the people you love standing in front of it.
10. Don’t brag.
Don’t boast about your abilities, if they are good enough, people will do the talking for you.
11. A simple maxim.
Do no harm, but take no shit.
12. Not everything is as it seems.
Once on a farm there was a bird. The bird would follow a cow around, and when the cow took a dump, the bird would eat the seeds out of the poop. One day the bird got too close and the cow shit all over him. An old barn cat saw this and came over and cleaned off the bird. As soon as the bird was nice and clean the cat ate him. Not everyone that craps on you is your enemy, not everything that cleans you off is your friend.
13. On vocabulary.
Your thoughts are limited by your vocabulary.
14. On worshipping.
I actually read this one on Reddit: “the moment you place someone on a pedestal they will look down upon you.”
15. Always fact-check.
Trust, but verify.
16. Advice given on the day of his death.
“Don’t forget, your life is what you live it. Live it with no regret.” ~My grandpa the day he passed away.
17. Don’t overstep your boundaries.
If it’s wet and it’s not yours, don’t touch it.
18. Don’t give undue respect.
Never treat someone like a priority when that someone treats you like you’re an option.
Also, the grass is always greener where you water it.
19. On being critical of others.
In my younger and more vulnerable years my father gave me some advice that I have been turning over in my mind ever since. “Whenever you feel like criticizing anyone,” he told me, “just remember that all the people in this world haven’t had the advantages you’ve had.”
20. On love.
Love is action. If you love someone you show them rather than only tell them. Learned from my interpersonal relationships professor in college.
21. Be patient.
Get it working first, then make enhancements.
22. On insecurities.
Stop being self-conscious. Nobody is paying any attention to you. Everyone is paying more attention to themselves.
23. On the importance of setting aspirations.
You need to have goals in your life.
“If you live without dreams, without hope, you will move through life in a very hollow way” – Richard Boyatzis.
24. On worrying.
If you spend today worrying about tomorrow, you’ll never be happy.
25. Advice from Tom Wolfe.
I saw Tom Wolfe speak once and he said this, which I will never forget: Everyone has one great novel in them – it is the story of your life. The problem is that second one. No one wants to read about the author who wrote one great novel and is trying to figure out what to do next. Go out, experience the world, learn about new and interesting subjects.
26. On your past.
Draw from your past, don’t let your past draw from you.
27. On respect.
Respect is not a thing that comes through name, profession or money, respect is something earned through the things you do and the way you live.
28. On learning.
Surround yourself by people smarter than you and better at your job than you. It’s the best way to learn.
29. Relationship advice.
When it comes to your S/O, pick your battles. You can’t win them all.
30. Everything’s relative.
You may have it tough, but there’s always someone out there who has it worse. And they certainly don’t plan on giving up.
31. On the importance of masturbation.
Masturbate before any major decision.
32. Don’t be too presumptuous.
Always treat a gun like it’s loaded.
It’s just so applicable to other parts of life.
33. On promises.
There is nothing more worthless than a promise. Never accept one. Anyone who promises you something is desperately trying to fuck you over.
34. On thinking ahead.
Don’t point out a problem unless you have a better solution.
35. On drinking.
Don’t drink when you’re upset, it’ll become a trend.
36. Be wary.
You’re only seeing everyone else’s highlight reel.
37. On forgiveness.
I’ve quoted this before and I’ll quote it again. It was given to me by a soccer coach at a summer camp I went to when I was a kid. I was super mad at this other kid and the coach pulls me aside, looks me in the eyes and says, “Forgiveness is Freedom”. I clearly remember it to this day.
38. On giving up.
Giving up is always easier than holding on. Funny how people have the courage to miss out the potential and start all over again. Usually repeating the same mistakes over and over again.
Don’t give up yet.
39. On maintaining health.
Take care of your health, it’s the best thing you own.
40. On time.
If you have time to do it wrong, you have time to do it again.
41. Always look where you’re going.
Don’t look down at your feet when you’re walking, look up instead. See the horizon. See the world.
42. On unneeded distractions.
“Don’t worry about what they’re doing, worry about what you’re doing” – My aunt, while teaching me how to drive. But I find it applicable pretty much everywhere.
43. On revenge.
Living well is the best revenge.
44. On taking responsibility.
My kindergarten teacher changed my mindset forever when she asked where my backpack was. I told her, “Mommy forgot my backpack.” To which she replied, “Whose backpack?” I didn’t even need to respond. Those two words gave me so much insight into what it means to take responsibility for your own actions. I also learned firsthand why you should never touch your eyes after handling chili peppers. Shit burns and you miss recess, but that was a different day.
45. Never reveal too much.
Never write down anything you wouldn’t want read in court.
These are the kind of people that should be running our country.